A THREE WEEK PERIOD

She said The first time you go to therapy is like the first time you have sex
It's looking at each other and thinking
if we do this every week will it get
better?

She was secretly a big woman
you could only tell in off moments
like say she looked out the window
and suddenly all this size

She had a video camera and wanted to use it on me
I said no
It was from 1998, maybe, on a tripod at eye level right next to her head
Staring and
I wanted to say lady, think about it
you know
Get your brain in the game

I was alone
the other day
in the park eating a very simple
well made sandwich
prosciutto mozarella olive oil vinegar and really good bread
and next to me was an older gentleman maybe 50
also alone
and I asked him excuse me? what's your name?
and he said what?
and I said sorry. excuse me. what's your name?
and he said
Mr. Hart
and I said oh I'm sorry I thought you were someone else
when the truth is I didn't think he was someone else
I knew he was Mr. Hart the whole time

I'm beginning to understand the computer bars in Chinatown
Young men playing World of Warcraft all day
nonsensical slogans emblazoned across their chests and
greasy boxed noodles
in easy reach

Forget what they tell you
your time isn't precious at all.